Many years ago today, after 9 rent-free months, I was finally evicted from my first home (read: Ma’s womb) and welcomed into my second home.
Growing up, I had a rosy idea about life. I thought and expected life to be good. I was a good kid. I had good grades. But did it? Nahhh…Life hasn’t always good. Once in a while, life blows stuff along my way. And not so long ago, I struggled with my self-image and loving myself and hoped others would give me the “love” instead, but I was always disappointed. Then came a defining moment in my life, one that completely shifted my views and how I see myself and the world around me. Ever since then, my entire perspective shifted. The experiences I went through – the pain, hurt and frustration – have (and still are) helped me so much on my journey of growth and self-discovery.
I am now at a place in life where peace and growth are a priority. I’m protective over my peace and have no time for people who are likely to disrupt it. Thus, I deliberately avoid certain people to protect my mental, emotional and spiritual state. I refuse to make space for toxic people, those who don’t add meaning to my life, those who don’t help me grow, all the toxic people. I am extremely selfish with myself, my time and energy.
I am very proud of the woman I am becoming. There are still aspects I don’t know about myself. You see, whenever I think that I am in my final form, I realize that I am nothing more than a draft. I’m discovering the unknown and building upon them. My potential is infinite. I’m moving towards knowing myself in the most sincere way, to create the woman that I want to be. The woman who will cost me a lot of things – people, relationships, spaces – but whom I am choosing over everything, anyway.
My promise to myself today is to take very good care of me; to grow me mentally, emotionally and spiritually; to grow me financially independent, to make me super proud and above all else, to love me in the realest way that there is. To love me unconditionally and unapologetically, such that, at the end of my life, if God asks me what I did with my life, I’ll proudly say, “I spent it loving me.”❤
A VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME🎉